159.6

Exercise: None :'(

Ate:
Sesame bagel w butter n jelly
Iced green tea
Iced coffee
Water
Tiny bit of chicken Alfredo
Ravioli w asparagus & gruyere
Oatmeal w apple cinnamon chia goodness
Big bite of spaghetti stuck together

What a relief that I didn't see the 160s today! One thing I've improved on re: dieting is that I refuse to let my weight control my mood or make me have a bad day. If it's up, it's up...I'm still the same person and God is still there, controlling it all. In the end, weight is not worth it.

But it's a good long-term goal. I know I'm happier and more comfortable at a lower weight, and it shouldn't be too hard to lose while I'm bf'ing and since it's 10# over a weight (150) that's been relatively easy to maintain.

Next week will be harder while at my Mom's, but I'll try to control myself. If I don't go off the deep end, I'm usually ok. The deep end is multiple bowls of sugar cereal or standing at the washer in the back room eating 1 bakery cookie after another. ;-)

158.4! So good to see that 5!

Exercise: Ran around like a crazy woman at full speed, chasing my boys around the circle in Logan Square. They are FAST!

Ate:
Iced coffee usual
Frosted mini-wheats w fruit in the middle
Almond milk
Water
Iced green tea
Veggie burger w lettuce, tomato, onion, pickle & jalapeño mayo
A few sweet potato & regular fries
Potato chips w blue cheese
Chips & guacamole
Flavorice
BBQ wings w blue cheese
1 piece pizza wo cheese
Zillions of Froot Loops

We ate at Dunlay's Bar & Grill in Logan Square. It was delish! LOVE their homemade veggie burger. We went to LS bc we wanted to play the arcade games at Logan Hardware, but it was closed!!! We were so bummed.

I'm craving junk so badly. Hope I can hold off since that was a huge lunch and I'd really like to stay in the 150s this time!!

I wrote that before the wings and pizza. Lol. Oh, and the cereal. Okay 160s, I guess I'll be yo-yo'ing back up tomorrow!

160.4 - 150s I miss you!! :(

Exercise: Nada :(

Ate:
Fried eggs n toast
Iced coffee
Iced green tea
Chicken pot pie
2 bowls of Life cereal w Truvia & soy milk (the Life is gone now - what a relief!)
Celery n peanut butter (we've run out of pb too! What am I gonna eat tmo?!)
Water

I craved peanut butter all day today and finally broke down in the early evening. I've gotten my 4-yo addicted to spoonfuls of it, so he helped finish it off. I at least had celery with mine!

Baby STILL has diarrhea. :( But she seems to feel fine. She's eating and p'ing normally, so I think it just needs to run its course.

I'm boring today. Just a day in the life!! I've got one kid asleep on my belly and one snoozing beside me...better get them in their beds, so I can be alone for a tiny bit before passing out myself!

160.2. Blah.

Exercise: NONE! :(
Ate:
Vat of oatmeal w raisins & macadamia nuts
Uncrustable (remind me to never buy these again)
Iced coffee usual
Water
A few apple slices w peanut butter
Sesame bagel w PB&J
Life cereal w Truvia & almond milk
Life cereal w sugar & almond milk
Bites of spaghetti
Iced green tea - 2

Why am I addicted to peanut butter??? I'm slowly but surely slipping back into my carb rut. I don't have enough other, better food around the house. I don't want to go to the store bc I'll be out of town next week (visiting my superb mommy!!!). I don't even know if I can call this a diet anymore! It's hard right now. :(

On the plus side, I started back to work today. Baby took a long nap so that was nice. It was a good workday! It wasn't hard to sit and work for 4 hours, but I barely made a dent in my 2000+ emails!!

160. Down is good.

Exercise: walked ~6 blocks and played tennis w/big sis1 (We lost, but we'll get 'em next time! We're just warmin' up.)

Ate:
Peanut butter n jelly on 2 rolls
Eggs n whites
Sourdough toast
Chipotle burrito bowl w barbacoa
Red mango yogurt w twix n Reese's
The rest of Res' red mango
2 iced coffees - one super duper delicious by fab big sis2!
Diet coke
Water water water
Microwave Popcorn

Baby had diarrhea last night and today. I don't know why. So I was up twice last night, feeding more than usual. I drank a ton of water today to make up for that. Sometimes, it seems like water is almost more important than food for breastfeeding.

I wish I could've resisted the candy on my froyo but I just could not! CANDY FIEND!!!!!

Big sis2 left today and took Awwsomme nephew with her. :( We'll reunite in a week though, at my Mom's house.

I start back to work tmo!!! Aaaaack! I don't know if you'll ever hear from me again!!!!!

160.4 (156, it was fun while it lasted!)

Exercise: pushed strollered baby all over soccer fields; walked 30' w/2 big sisters (I <3 them.)

Iced coffee (usual)
Starbucks venti unsweetened iced coffee w/Equal & a splash of milk
Clif Builder's vanilla almond protein bar
Chicken Alfredo Pasta
Water
Italian Beef on rolls
Romaine lettuce
Poppy seed dressing
Flavorice Popsicle
Apple
Peanut butter
A few bites of everyone else's Italian ice

Of course I gained after yesterday's frenzy. Eating when you're not hungry is definitely a no-no! Weekends are so hard, but they're even more so with company. I wouldn't trade a visit from fab big sis2 for ANYthing, tho!!

I also ate pita chips yesterday - my current weakness. They're just too good! The bag is gone now tho, so I just have to avoid buying them again. Or maybe just not buy the massive Costco bag!

Today was better. Only thing I sort of lost it on was the peanut butter. I may be able to get away with that while nursing - time will tell.

My 8-yo won a sportsmanship medal for hardest worker in soccer today. So proud!! We are both working hard. :)

156.6!!!

Exercise: Walked 40' w/baby, fab big sis1 & awwsomme nephew!

Ate:
Fried eggs & egg whites
2 pieces dry sourdough toast
Chicken Alfredo pasta
Grapes grapes wonderful grapes
Iced coffee usual
Water
Apple
4T peanut butter
Nachos
Hummus & pita
1/4 BLT
Pita chips
S'mores Goldfish
Bites of stale BK Cinnabon
TWO Coke Zeros (BAD!)

I am shocked that I lost weight! It must be baby's feeding schedule. She has to be in a growth spurt bc she's eating like a newborn again. She'll get up only once at night (sometimes twice) but once 5-6 am hits, she wants to eat every half hour until about 8 am. Crazy!

Tomorrow I surely won't be so lucky. Fab Big Sis2 came into town and insisted on going out for appetizers! I wasn't even hungry but I dug right in!!! Dang it! Oh well, it was fun. :) And she bought!!